missy

 i have only tomorrow left with my diet and i have lost around 3 lbs lol i didt exercise much. anyway i got about 11 inches of my hair cut off after school and i love my new hair. i gave myself a french manicure just because i felt like it haha avoiding homework to b honest. and some creepy kid at school today said i looked hott haha! yea right. anyway its been a realy good day and im working on my delightful temper so i intend for the days to come to b happy as well :) i rely want to b a better person, spiritually, physically and mentally. i have 4 sisters, 3 of them were married when they turned 19 and the 4th was proposed to on her 20th birthday. i relay want to marry young and live a long lovely life with that remarkable someone who makes me complete. theirs a problem however that i recently thought of, i still consider my self a girl although i am physically a women. i want to prepare myself to b a wife and later mother by working hard at making myself matcher (still fun tho lol) i want to be confident and fun and feel comphortible with the knowledge that someday i will have to take care of a husband his needs and wants and emotions and stresses and children who will run around and drive me crazy. i want to be wiser and more attractive. once i accomplish these things then i think i might start thinking of myself as a women and then i know ill be ready to truly fall in love and be married. i want to not have the "i am worm! worthless worm!" feeling when i stand by my ever so perfect for me/custom made by God, sole mate.